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Reeds
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 Posted - 11 Feb 2010 : 20:59:00
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My 11 year old German Shepherd died on Monday morning 8.2.10. This wonderful dog was my baby girl (single person; no kids) and was much loved by my extended family. She has had bad hips for a few years and 4 weeks ago after coming back from being clipped, she suddenly couldn’t walk and was dazed and confused. I couldn’t get her into the car so booked the vet to visit the house the next day but that night she seem to come good and the next day I took her in. After checking out her hips we upped the pain meds and anti-inflammatory drugs. We had xrays and removed a dodgy lump. The vet said that when he pulled out the air tube there was some pus and blood on the end. We assumed it might be cancer.
Then last week she went off her food but she was still pottering around with me. On Monday this week I let her out in the morning and when I came back to look for her she was sitting in a place she never does and drooling, which she also doesn’t do. With much prompting I got her to come inside on her bed and she never got up again. With in 25 minutes she was finding in harder to breath. 15 minutes later she took her last breath and a few minutes after that she died.
While I was glad she died quickly, in her bed, with me at her side but I’m overcome with grief. She was a precious and special girl. I had my mum, sister and her kids, come over and we spent 2 hours sitting with her, patting her and crying. We made paw prints and then we took her for cremation.
Now I’m at home alone and for the first time really feel alone. I tears rise up at any time and floor me; I’m flooded with emotion of loss and a certain unreal feeling. I’m measuring everything in relation to when she was here or how long it’s been since she was here. Coming home is “Not Coming Home to Her,” getting up is getting up to her “Not Being Here”. I feel like I will never get over her – I know time heals all wounds and want it to be 6 months down the track now. I’ve made some photo albums of her and given them to my nieces and nephews who loved her too. I’ve made a framed tribute to her and placed it on my wall to look at. People have been very kind to me and sent me cards but while they know I’m sad; grief is still very personal and isolating. I find myself crying and wanting her back, in that childish manner, that just wants things their way. I hate that she left me; I hate that it has to happen and I do want her back.
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Reeds
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Posted - 01 Mar 2010 : 16:47:00
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3 weeks later and I'm not crying everyday but think about her all the time - she really was a special girl. I could not stand getting another dog so soon so have got my self a cat. I never thought I'd be a cat person but she is sweet, confident and affectionate and it helps to have someone to talk to as I potter around the house.
It was quiet hard on the actual day of picking up my kitten to think I was getting another animal due to having lost one but at the same time I had a laugh thinking how much Ahkeela would have loved me to buy a kitten for her to chase when she was around.
I love German Shepherds and I'm contemplating getting a pup over xmas, when I have my big holidays... but I don't think too much about that at the moment.
She bought so much to my life and I miss her everyday. |
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majorca74
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Australia
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Posted - 07 Apr 2010 : 17:21:33
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| I understand your grief as I lost my little dog on 22nd February and I am feeling her loss very badly and like you I am still tearfull.I to am a single person(pensioner)and my little dog was my only family.Reading your message and knowing that I am not alone in my feelings of loss has given me some comfort.It seems that it isn't until they are gone that we realise just how much our pets meant to us.I would give everything I own to have her back for just a short while so that I could say goodbye to her. |
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Kamu
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Australia
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Posted - 12 Apr 2010 : 11:36:19
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Thinking of you my fellow pet lover. I feel for you as am grieving for my golden retriever/labrador mate of 13 years who passed away two weeks ago. i write about him almost every day and it is a big help. Through writing I come to realise and understand much more. For example; each one of us is unconditional love. At our essence, that is what we are. This is how each one of us came into this world and this is what lies beyond our experience here. In the course of our lives we take on the beliefs and fears that lead us act in ways that do not honor that greater truth. We forget and we live in the illusion that we are somehow incomplete and that love comes from outside ourselves. Our work is to remember our essential nature (wholeness) and live consciously from this place.
Our pets' lasting memory is to remind us that the true nature of love is the unconditional love of self. I remind myself not to forget this.
In those moments when I forget who and what I really am, I just need to remember the image of him as I walked through the door. And the sound of a tail swishing at the joy of being alive, and his big smiley happy face.
Hope you enjoy your cat.
Perri
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Originally posted by Reeds
My 11 year old German Shepherd died on Monday morning 8.2.10. This wonderful dog was my baby girl (single person; no kids) and was much loved by my extended family. She has had bad hips for a few years and 4 weeks ago after coming back from being clipped, she suddenly couldn’t walk and was dazed and confused. I couldn’t get her into the car so booked the vet to visit the house the next day but that night she seem to come good and the next day I took her in. After checking out her hips we upped the pain meds and anti-inflammatory drugs. We had xrays and removed a dodgy lump. The vet said that when he pulled out the air tube there was some pus and blood on the end. We assumed it might be cancer.
Then last week she went off her food but she was still pottering around with me. On Monday this week I let her out in the morning and when I came back to look for her she was sitting in a place she never does and drooling, which she also doesn’t do. With much prompting I got her to come inside on her bed and she never got up again. With in 25 minutes she was finding in harder to breath. 15 minutes later she took her last breath and a few minutes after that she died.
While I was glad she died quickly, in her bed, with me at her side but I’m overcome with grief. She was a precious and special girl. I had my mum, sister and her kids, come over and we spent 2 hours sitting with her, patting her and crying. We made paw prints and then we took her for cremation.
Now I’m at home alone and for the first time really feel alone. I tears rise up at any time and floor me; I’m flooded with emotion of loss and a certain unreal feeling. I’m measuring everything in relation to when she was here or how long it’s been since she was here. Coming home is “Not Coming Home to Her,” getting up is getting up to her “Not Being Here”. I feel like I will never get over her – I know time heals all wounds and want it to be 6 months down the track now. I’ve made some photo albums of her and given them to my nieces and nephews who loved her too. I’ve made a framed tribute to her and placed it on my wall to look at. People have been very kind to me and sent me cards but while they know I’m sad; grief is still very personal and isolating. I find myself crying and wanting her back, in that childish manner, that just wants things their way. I hate that she left me; I hate that it has to happen and I do want her back.
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kel
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Australia
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Posted - 08 Jul 2010 : 13:19:48
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hi i am sory to hear about your loss, i was reading this and seen u had written you dont cry everyday but still think alot about you baby, i lost my chihuahua in jan 10th and i still cry every single day where i sometimes i cant breath, how did you get to that point? i just cant seem to let go and it hurts like it was just yesterday everyday hope to hear from u soon 
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bobkerry
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USA
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Posted - 23 Jul 2010 : 07:40:12
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| after reading your posts i really feel sorry and it also make me remember of my cat who left me 3 years ago...she was my darling cat....one thing which i have observed is as soona s time passes we get attached with our pets and this is natural |
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My Baby Girl is Gone
